MARCUS Maddison says he might quit football after struggling to find happiness in the game.
The Charlton Athletic midfielder cut his loan spell with the Wanderers short after two and a half months after a heart-to-heart conversation with manager Ian Evatt on Sunday.
Maddison has struggled to settle down since leaving Peterborough United in October 2020, spent periods with Hull City, Charlton and was finally loaned to Whites in February.
In a post on his official Instagram account, the 27-year-old wished Bolton success and thanked Evatt for his efforts, but said he would return home to reflect on his future in the game.
âWell, the football industry has finally broken me,â he wrote. âAll the abuse, the pressures and the monotony of the past two years have just hit me.
âI’ve tried to fit in and be happy, but if I can’t be happy, on a winning team fighting for promotion, that’s clearly something deeper.
âI come home to think I want to play football more because it just doesn’t bring me any joy.
“I cannot thank Ian Evatt enough for his understanding and I wish @officialbwfc all the best for the final race.”
Maddison was living at the Bolton Whites Hotel during the lockdown and it is understood that he felt estranged from his young daughter which affected his mental well-being.
âMyself, Marcus and his agent had a very long conversation on Sunday about everything,â Evatt told The Bolton News. âI also had another discussion with the PFA to make sure we could get the best help and support for Marcus.
âFootball takes a back seat in all of this. People need to respect his privacy and wish him luck, so I hope he can get back to the right place. ”
Maddison made 10 appearances for Bolton after signing a loan from Charlton on transfer deadline day. However, his departure from Harrogate was only his fourth for the club, and in recent weeks there had been a great debate among Wanderers fans over what role the playmaker might have in the season’s break-in.
Evatt said that day to day, however, the signs the player was feeling weak were evident.
âIt’s not hard to say, to be honest,â he said. “And if you spoke to Marcus, he would say we supported him all the way.”
âWe tried to give him playing time, for example a start on Saturday, to try to rekindle the fire and the happiness and obviously that didn’t work. In many ways, it made it worse and amplified.
âFirst and foremost we are human and it’s not just about football, it’s about people’s lives and their feelings. Marcus has had my full support for his mental well-being and he will continue to have my full support, as well as Sharon and everyone else in this football club.
Maddison will not be eligible to play for Charlton upon his return and is out of contract this summer.
Sources in south London say Wanderers will continue to pay the agreed amount of wages despite the premature end of his loan period.